karly- thats so mumble mumble

me- what?

karly- so weird

me- (ha) what?

karly- thats such a bizzare place to have it


pretty good, but still not quite up with my favorite

karly- ew!! cortney!! chris!!! stop it!!!

me- what?

karly- stop doing that!! its gross!!

me- what??

karly- dont put spiders on me.

orrr to sum up them all...

karly- mmmm worried...

yayyy fairhill went really well!!! im so proud of airy, i know i make fun of him a lot but i should stop bc he really stepped up and did a great job this weekend.
dressage was pretty good, i did hardly any warm up bc the warm up ring was really bad footing and there was tons of dust and i couldnt breathe at all and plus aparently when you go to an unrecognized show you are taking ur life in ur hands, no one could ride in the warm up and it was all wild and crazy. so i went in for my test and the judge ended up being my dressage trainer who i havent called or taken lessons from in like 9 months. shes in love with airy and she is actually the one who found him for me. but i was worried bc shes a tough judge and i knew she would probably judge me a little harder bc she knows me. we had a good test tho, he was pretty calm, he only spooked once because a frikin tree fell down in the woods right next to the ring, very random. and he got a little over enthusiastic and picked up a canter rather than a trot at one point but other then that he was super and a lot calmer than the other horses in the division.
on the way up to cross country i took the back trail, cross country and stadium are like a mile walk from the trailers. anyways, it was really rocky and bad footing so i was a little worried bc airy is barefoot in the back. all the sudden this crazy ass woman comes galloping down the trail at us. shes like "dont worry!! im just trying to wear him out a little before cross country!!" the crazy loon galloped back and forth like 4 times, poor airy was so worried about that. and her horse didnt even have any shoes on and there were a ton of huge rocks and he was all sweaty and tired, i felt really bad.
stadium went really well, he was really excited about the jumping. i was a litte worried about the in and out but i had been practicing the 2 stride at home. he spooked a little on the first one and hit it but then went right through fine to the second. i still dont know if we knocked the first one down tho, nobody saw it fall but i know he hit it pretty good.
he was sooo much better cross country then i could have even imagined, hes hardly schooled at all this year and some of the jumps were really colorful but he didnt back off at all. the up bank was a little shadey and he wanted to rush it but i knew he would probably spook so i made him trot so he could get a good look and he went right up. he didnt even look at the ditch and the only crappy jump was the 2nd to last. it was the "log on a lump" basicly a steep hill with a hanging log on the top and then a drop down another steep hill. hes never done one and i probably should have had a little more momentem bc he was getting tired. he hit his knees i think but it didnt really seem to bother him, he just tucked more for the last.
so over all i am realllly proud of him and i think i am going to move him up to novice. as long as we didnt have a rail stadium (which im still not positive bc the results arent posted online and i left early) then we won bc we were 1st after dressage. so im really excited. i think he may be a good horse if i just take it slow with him, he really had a lot of fun yesterday. yayy. im ready to start competing again, ive missed this.

Date:	2006-09-26 17:19
Subject:	so i havent written anything in awhile
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungry

and i dont really have anything interesting to say. except that i fell down today. i was walking down the sidewalk and rolled my ankle like i always do in heels. except i was too close to the edge of the sidewalk so i completely fell down. in front of like a lot of ppl. soooo embarrassing!! i pretty much leapt up and ran away. haha. sort of funny tho.

other than that i have been going to my classes. which is why i have nothing interesting to say.

http://www.abercrombieguys.zoomshare.com/2.html

thats all.

Date:	2006-08-21 16:54
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Mood:	productive
Music:	dude looks like a lady- aerosmith

yipppie!!! almost done packing!!! i am in a fantastic mood! no, really i am, i really like to pack. even better is that part where i get to put all my stuff away in the dorms and organize everything. you probably think i am being sarcastic but i am not. even though i am somewhat lacking in the organization department i DO like to start off the year organized. then it will probably go rapidly downhill from there with a few infrequent days where i go into a psycho cleaning frenzy. i am going to try to be organized all year tho, or at least do my best, for karly's sake.
anyways, all this packing got me very excited for school. i'm really going to try to stay on top of things this year, go to class, do my homework and hopefully be able to keep myself some where near this new sleeping schedule where i am getting up from 5:30 to 6am to run and get my riding out of the way.
oh, and fyi ud'ers...i think i am probably going to end up moving in on friday. i expect you will ALL be there to greet me, bring me presents and carry my shit upstairs while i sit in the air conditioning. haha. jk. but i DO expect we will be having some much missed fun that nite. you kno what i am talking about ;-)
morgan just got back from trying to get her permit and was unsucessful AGAIN. 5th time. i am really glad i could get it done through tatnall. the first time she went she didnt have the right form. the second time the dr's didnt send the right info. the third time she failed the test. the fourth time she passed the test but the dr's forgot to sign something. today my uncle took her and it was CLOSED. even tho its a monday and their webpage says its open. obviously god doesnt want morgan driving and i kind of agree with him.
alright, i better go ride. its so nice out. i wish it would rain tho. i need to get some film for my camera. i was just searching for pics to hang in my dorm room and realized i have like 983493840982409824092842048 of ripp and 0 or airy. poor neglected boy.

PS I WANT TO SEE BEERFEST. AND I WANT TO SEE IT DRUNK.

Date:	2006-07-31 02:13
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Mood:	grumpy

i hate it when this happens. i have to get up early but i cant sleep. i think i fell asleep for an hour or so but now i am wide awake. i hate summer. its so frikin hot in here. i should probably go over to zavoynas and sleep bc she has the ac on a lot cooler than us, but i dont really seel like going outside and i would probably reset my alarm wrong and oversleep. meh...summer sucks. well not summer really but hot, humid weather.
this week looks like hell. not only are there heat warnings all over the place but i have to ride all three horses and do the whole barn myself since morgan is at field hockey camp. sweet. besides that the zavoynas (the people living in the guest house) are at the young rider championships in va for 2 wks and i have to take care of their cat and 3 dogs, one of which is a new puppy who has to go out every 3 secs and i am pretty sure is mentally challenged. you take him out and he pretends he doesnt have to go and you bring him in and he shits on the floor immediatly. a real smarty. and besides that my grandma is also on vacation so i have to go take care of the kittens i gave her twice a day and play with them bc they are lonely. and i still have work...which i HATE. oh well, 2 wks and 1 day left and then i can have a break. hopefully i dont snap before then. if they keep making me work 7 days a week with don i probably will.
wow i am in a super bad mood, i hate it when i cant sleep.
and i'm pretty sure i am getting sick...awesome.
alright, i better try and go to bed since i have to get up in less than 3 hrs and i have nothing interesting to say.

mom told me grandma just named the kittens that i rescued and gave to her. she called the boy Buddy and the girl...Pussy. hahaha omg.

sorry kar.

Date:	2006-07-13 15:18
Subject:
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Mood:	lazy
Music:	it's a great day to be alive- travis tritt

last weekend was fun. sunday i got to fly on the moran's private jet to go see some races at colonial downs in va. i went with michael, lizzy (their oldest daughter, a year younger than me), lizzy's boyfriend from ct, sanna hendriks (steeplechase trainer), and another trainer lady who happened to be 8 months pregnant.
i really wanted to go but i wasnt too excited about the plane ride. i HATE planes generally, i am always positive they are going to crash and that will be the end of it. i spend the whole ride with my eyes closed feeling sick and heaven forbid we hit turbulance. so when this six seater plane i couldnt even stand up in took off i was certain i was going to die. it didnt help that michael kept joking with the piolet about sobering up. the flight went smoothly tho. we flew out of chester county airport (haaaa). it was kinda cool bc wen we took off i recognized a lot of places we flew over including our farm and the morans. after 50 mins we landed in richmond and then we drove to the track.
we stopped off at the stables first with broke my heart. no doubt the morans horses were the more high class ones there. there were tons of scrawny little thoroughbreds standing in dirty stalls coughing and covered in saddle sores. i was glad wen we left, i was starting to feel sick again.
sanna's horse won the first race which was a steeplechase with a ton of really bad horses in it. still a win is a win i guess. one of our horses, silent roar, ran in the 4th race. he was one of the first horses i rode at michaels, he fell in a groundhog hole with me like my second day working. he was also the first horse i was allowed to do slow breezes on. i dont ride him anymore tho, he's to far along. anyways, silent roar won like nobody's bussiness. the jockey set him around 2nd or 3rd the whole way. in the stretch he flicked his whip and changed his hold and roar just flew by the leaders winning by about five lengths not pushed. we were pretty proud considering last year he got so screwed up in florida they almost had to put him to sleep because he was mental and kept falling on people. i got to be in the picture in the winners circle which was cool too.
our other filly broke kinda badly and got beat about 5 lengths to end up in fifth. another filly of ours ran well at philadelphia park but got really tired so she ended up third. oh well, we cant win them all. im still proud of silent roar. even if he is kind of a grumpy horse.
if nothing else the whole experience was a real eye opener. i really love galloping racehorses but there is a lot i really don't agree with. they run them way to young, their bones arent even finished growing yet so that causes unnecessary stress and breakdowns. and seeing the other horses who dont get nearly the same care as we give at morans really hurt me. you could just see the fear and pain in their eyes. that isnt right. and it wont make a good racehorse either. not the sort of thing i would want to try to make a living at and i guess the morans dont really have to. whether i continue to gallop racehorses or not after this summer i've decided i am going to do a lot of work with retraining and rehabilitating ex racers once i start training. they do make good event horses and with a little patience a lot of them can have great second careers. besides, i am pretty sure that working with young horses is more of my passion then competing is; not that i dont like competing, i just have to get my nerve back. i'm not scared of falling off or getting hurt, i just hate being under pressure and messing up. i dont kno.
on another note, whether you like country or not this is an awesome song. you all should download it.
ps. why is that the face for lazy??

Date:	2006-07-07 20:44
Subject:	AIRY IS BETTER!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy

at least at the moment. i jumped him today so we will see if that lasts. and ripp needs his hocks injected because even tho he is only 11 he is so arthritc he can barely trot. more money. i have unbelieveable luck.
grandma took the kitties cause she is lonely and lives by herself so thats good. i didnt relly have the time to take care of nemore animals anyhow. if we count alex's pets who live here now we have 4 horses 6 dogs and 2 cats. sweet.
the morans invited me to ride on their private jet to the races sunday to see two of their best horses run. its pretty awesome. only one problem...i HATE planes. and i've never even ridden in a little one before. and mom wont buy me tranquilizers. so we'll see. i'd hate to tell them i cant go bc i am afraid of airplanes. it would be relly cool.
bonnie and jenga made the world cup team again! i am relly proud of them. they are leaving for germany in late july i think. that would b fun to watch.
my life is pretty boring. i feel a little like napoleon dynamite. i miss school and i need to get drunk asap. just letting you know.

ps karly, i think i am a super wimp cause i am rellly sore from playing tennis the other day haha

Date:	2006-06-20 22:12
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Mood:	sleepy

quick update, i'm pretty tired. i got 2 new kitties. they were dropped off at morans and they didnt want them there so i said i would take them. moms not too happy but i kno she's a sucker for a homeless kitten. thats pretty much the only exciting thing in my life at the moment.
thursday airy has a vet appointment with dr. keane to see what his deal is. i dont kno if i can do nething :-/
i'm leaving for vacation friday. woo!

Date:	2006-05-17 19:07
Subject:	update on my ever so exciting life....
Security:	Public
Mood:	predatory

sorry it has been so long. not having internet in my room or now at home is getting to be a huge pain in the arse. i am soooo happy that everyone is home. i can't wait to get out of school so i can stop stressing and spend more time with you all...not that i would ever stress about school buuut, if mom and dad get my grades as they are now i may be locked in my tower for the summer. and that would not be cool. i think i am going to have to write them a paper to expain why i did so shitty this semester. a lot of it would have to do with my job, i probably over committed myself this spring and work had a lot to do with it. as much as i dont want to i will probably take the fall off :-(
i havent jumped airy since flora lea because he is LAME. he pulled a muscle out in the feild because he and ripp play way too rough and now, 2 wks later he is still all gimpy. growl. i hate horses, i really do.
my friend alex and her mom are going to rent the guest house for awhile. her dad took a job in austin tx and they dont need a house as big as theirs is so they decided to rent ours. they havent moved in yet but she brought her superhorse over 2 wks ago. that thing is amazing. she moved him up to intermediate and they are already beating phillip dutton in the open division. so not fair. i went up to my ring the other day and the jumps, which i ha had set up to about 2'9" (the astounding height i am currently jumping) were all set up to about 4'3". soooo not fair. i walked airy up to them and i swear he gulped and tried to run the other way. and they were pretty much over liam's head.
today at work i rode with anne. she was getting a pony in shape and let me ride her green horse. when she suggested we jump i agreed but i really didnt want to. i dont know why but i still havent gotton my confidence back jumping. i chased the poor horse down to the wrong distance 80% of the time. anne talked me through it and helped me relax and her horse jumped great, but i am still really tense. then she told me to go up the outside line, which was only like 3ft but that looks huge to me right now. eventually i got it but io guess anne could see all over my face that i was afraid. she, like everyone else, wants to know what happened to all my confidence. i'm really not sure when i lost it but i'm deffinitely no longer the girl who goes flying around the course at breakneck speed in under minimum time. that was 3 years ago and for the past two or three i have never been that brave. part of it is good because i never used to have any respect for the jumps. but i think when i moved up to prelim and ripp started to stop because hios feet hurt, it shook me up. i dont know what i can do to change that but i really just want to enjoy jumping again. i'm not saying i NEVER enjoy it but i always get so nervous and the horses can tell i dont trust them. i think anne is going to try to "fix" me. she said i just need to get out more, force myself to jump things and know that it is ok to trust my horse again. i am taking liam over to her farm tomorrow to jump school. hope it goes well. i respect anne a lot as a horse person and i hate for her to know that i am not a confident rider. especially when i am riding her racehorses...
yesterday was a shitty day. at 9:30 or so i headed home to do the stalls since my dad had a meeting (ghe usually mucks for me on tues). about 7.5 miles from ud my car starts shaking like hell. (the engine and oil light had been on for four days and 2 months respectivley, but hey, if it is running it works right? apparently not.) i kept driving because i was like...okkkk, so the car is shaking a little, but i cant stop here, i have to get home, and i will just leave it there and get the truck. then the shaking turns into my car rapidly deccelerating (sp?) i look at my rpms and i am way in the red and only going like 20 mph. i decided then i should probably pull over and call my dad. dad was like "oh you are probably out of oil" even tho he had checked my oil this weekend and said it was fine. then he tells me to walk a mile up the road to the next gas station and buy oil to put in my car. so i walk up 896 for a mile to the gas station. oh, and ps, i am still wearing pj's (t shirt and shorts that i got when i was like 12) since i was planning on going staight home to change. i went into the gas station, bought some oil (i had to pick one randomly since i had no clue what kind to get), then i walked back to my car. i opened the hood and after like 15 mins found where to put the oil. then, like 5 min later, like 6 guys show up and are like "uhhh can we help push your car out of the road because we are afraid it is going to get hit by one of those big trucks" i was like, uhhhh ok... so they very nicel;y pushed my car into the lot across the street. then one of them helped me to check my engine oil level which happened to be completely gone, it seems my dad had checked the transmission oil rather than the engine oil last weekend. whoops. they suggested i drive back to the gas station and buy a couple more qts of oil b4 driving home. i barely made it to the gas station so i bought 2 more qts and put them in my car. then i headed home again but only ogt about 1/2 a mile before my car started to do its funny bussiness again. i crawled back to the gas station w my blinkers on and called AAA for a tow truck. they said i had to ride with the driver to the lexus center in wilmington. i decided i would rather be stranded in newark than wilmington so i left my car and called a couple people to ask for a ride, unsucessfully. then my phone started to pretend it was going to die so i was like, fuck it, its less than 8 miles and i have walked that far before, i can do it again. so i start walking up 896. after i got beeped at by rude truck drivers about 4 times i was thinking this was a bad idea. i was just about ready to pick up a couple rocks to throw at the next jackass's windsheild when i heard a truck slow way down beside me. in my head i was pretty much like fuuuuck, im gonna die. i looked up and there was one of the guys who helped move my car, driving an old pickup. he was like, "come on, i'm not going to let you walk all the way up this road by yourself, let me drive you to whereever you're going". i thought about it for a second and although i knew it probably was a bad idea, i decided it was safer than walking the rest of the way to ud alone. i got in and he was like, "yea, my buddies and i saw you walk by again; you were making me nervous, there are a lot of weirdos out here on this road" i was like, uhh shit, i hope you're not one of them...then we got to talking and he seemed pretty cute...i mean nice. he said he worked at the antique dealership and his boss's son is a senior at ud. i told him i went to tatnall and he said he used to go to st. marks. pretty cool. in the end it all turned out ok, he dropped me off, i thanked him and he left. i went back in the dorms after that and was so stressed out by the whole ordeal i took like a 6 hr nap. the whole ordeal was a huge waste of time and i missed my last econ class (tear), but at least it was an adventure...
ok, that was a lot longer entry then i meant to write, i think i am going to go read for awhile and then go running. maybe if ppl are around we can chill tonight. i still have exams but i am done classes so i can hang out pretty much whenever. and you all should come on sat nite to party. matt, kim and i have some stupendous plans involving my roomates and random bouts of night terrors. should be fun ;-)

Date:	2006-04-24 23:32
Subject:
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Mood:	hopeful
Music:	tv

me and airy had our first event this weekend on saturday. i was a chicken and moved down to baby novice but i think it ended up being a good decision bc airy got to deal with everything else (the noise, horses, scary things etc) without having to worry about the size of the jumps or anything. he was really pretty good in the dressage. the horse in the ring next to us was freaking out, jumping out of the ring and even getting caught up in the chain that goes around the dressage ring. airy really wanted to spook and run but he held it together well. the judge said he was tight in his back (nervous) but said he has a lot of potential and i handed the situation well. we ended up tied for second after the dressage with the person ahead of me one of my old trainers (not bad). cross country was small but spooky, typical of this event. he started out really well over the first two. on the third, which was a log vertical type thing he was completely ADD and spooking at the fence judges. i dont think he even saw it till the last second so he jumped like a good boy but ended up smashing his legs into it, thank goodness for jumping boots!!! the next jump was a little roll top, he really didnt want to jump bc he hit the last one but he did, even tho it wasnt pretty. he spooked at a pile of junk the whole way around the next turn and hesitated at the little bank but then went right up it. next we went into the woods. i pulled him up to a trot to make sure i had his attention. he went right over the next three...a hanging log, a tire jump and a little fake ditch. i was worried about the next one because right behind it was this huge plastic spooky machiene thing and a bunch of other crap. he jumped it bravely but we almost didnt make the turn after. then we had to trot again through a huge ass mud pit and out of the woods. once we got out i picked up a good canter and we went over the last part of the course, some metal barrels (ghetttto), another uphill hanging log, a coop, a downhill ramp and the last, a small table. right before the last my watch went off cause i was out of time (growl) so when we landed on the the other side i finally let him go and he FLEW to the finish. so fun. he's not as dull as i thought when i bought him, as a matter of fact, now that he's fit he is actually really fast and REALLY strong. i dont think he will have any trouble at all with prelim speed but then i am getting a couple of years ahead of myself...anyways, after cross country i had a few time penalties which was annoying but worth it if it meant i didnt scare him and he didnt get himself going out of control and make a bad mistake. he was pretty worked up in the stadium warm up but luckily the spookiness of the jumps on course backed him off a good bit. he jumps really well when he's spooky, he doesnt stop but he collects himself, looks, and jumps really carefully which is nice. the only complaint on stadium was that he was still really nervous in the two stride combination (i didnt even think they were ALLOWED on baby novice) but i rode him really aggresivly and we got out of a short two stride in three strides. not pretty but hey, we got over. the rest went great tho. we ended up in fourth because of the time faults but i felt like we really accomplished our goals of going double clear so i was happy. also two of the horses that placed ahead of me were ridden by my extrainer. so it was good. there is still a lot of work to do, particularly in the combinations. i think i will take him to an unrecognized novice either this weekend or on may 6th...but if that doesnt work out i will just take him fairhill recognized novice in a little less than a month. its not a very hard course typically so we'll see. cant wait till bonnie gets back, she heads to rolex tomorrow am. hope everything goes well there, so exciting!!!

i'm a toga slut. especially with peter. okay i feel better now that i've said that.

Date:	2006-04-12 13:42
Subject:
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Mood:	discontent
Music:	none

sooo it looks like i am pretty much failing out of school at the moment. like legitamatly. on my mid terms i had 2 Fs 1 C and an A (which shouldnt even relly be an a). ive been working really hard in econ (one of my Fs) and thought i was doing pretty well on the quiz yesterday when then, as i was about 1/2 done, he was like...ok time's up!!! i was like, are you fucking kidding me??? i couldnt even get more time i had to fill in completely random answers for the whole second half. and i understood the material!!! it just still takes me a long time to work out the logic in my head. grrr my mom is going to kill me when she gets my grades. how bad do they have to be before i get kicked out?? i am seriously considering just dropping out of school, leaving home and getting a job somewhere. i feel like i am wasting my parent's money. i dont want to go to far just yet but i dont want to live at home either. after econ i was feeling like i was pretty much going to fail out of school anyways so i might as well start looking for a job. i found a very tempting opportunity in maryland. its a job working with retraining thoroughbreds off the track. the ad said that it would be riding 10 horses a day, $15 a horse, five days a week. that's about 750 a week, 3375 a month and roughly $40,000 a year. thats damn good for being a rider. and it is only 5 days a week. if i were earning that much i could rent a little apartment and afford to board my own horse down there. and i wouldnt bee too far from ud, i could still come hang out on the weekends. i dont know if they would hire me but i feel like i am qualified for the job. i have show experience in eventing and hunters, some background in dressage and show jumping and i know how to handle a racehorse. i dont know what age they were thinking of hiring tho. i really want to call but i am afraid too. its a huge decision. i wouldnt tell mom and dad i dont think. they wont let me drop out even tho they are just throwing their money away. i know, only bums dromp out but i honestly dont see the point in me being in school. no matter how hard mom tries to change my mind i'm not changing my career choice. and i havent learned one single thing in econ which i think will help me run my own business. i am rediculously sick of school at the moment. any advice as to what i should do would be greatly appreciated.

Date:	2006-04-05 23:20
Subject:
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Mood:	bored
Music:	nooothing

being a poser off of matt bc i love these things...
Taken a picture naked? when i was little
Made out with a member of the same sex? ew
Danced in front of your mirror? haha yes, morgs caught me too
Told a lie? too much
Gotten in a car with people you just met? yea
Been in a fist fight? yea
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? pretty much 24-7
Been arrested? nope
Left your house without telling your parents? i think so
Ditched school to do something more fun? does sitting in the bathroom count? bc it was more fun than spanish
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes...but not in THAT way
Seen someone die? animals, not people
Kissed a picture? yea but it wasnt very satisfying
Slept in until 3? maybe when i was sick, other than that, yea right
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yea
Played dress up? yea
Fallen asleep at work/school? hahaha oh yea, chris bookman style
Felt an earthquake? no
Touched a snake? yea
Ran a red light? Yes
Been in a car accident? yea
Pole danced? just for shits and giggles
Been lost? yea
Sang karaoke? yea
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? that wasn't worded very well...but yea, all the time
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yea ow
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? who hasnt?? you are deprived
Kissed in the rain? no but it would be cool
Sang in the shower? when i had my own bathroom
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? what kind of a retard...
Ever gone to school partially naked? only in nightmares
Sat on a roof top? yea, like santy claus
Played chicken? huh?
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes, twice at least...and my riding boots...growl bonnie
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? once a strange boy told me i was cute but he was a pathological lier haha
Broken a bone? no
Mooned/flashed someone? when i was little
Forgotten someone's name? "Of course. I no longer remember Fug's given name" ditto
Slept naked? oh yes
Blacked out from drinking? i dont remember...hahahahahahahahhahaha
Played a prank on someone? i lurve pranks
Felt like killing someone? sarah and lindsay and sarah and lindsay and sarah and lindsay and sarah and lindsay and sarah...
Made a parent cry? pretty much every day
Cried over someone? yea
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? ummmm no, horn dog
Had/Have a dog? 3!!
Been in a band? no, that would be cool tho
Drank 25 sodas in a day? haha, who does that??
Shot a gun? nope

that was a weird question to end on...

in other news im am studying very hard, riding a tonnnnnn and that's all. oh yea, and michael finally decided to get that matt horse tested for epm. yes, they named him matt. i think its sort of funny bc he cant walk properly...just like our matt...
i just discovered something about myself...i am a bitch.

Date:	2006-03-13 22:40
Subject:	my lovely weekend
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	dierks bently- i still got a lot of leaving left to do

had a GREAT weekend. well, friday night kinda sucked actually. me, kar, courtney with a u, matt and josh were all going to go out. we ended up walking around newark for like 500 hours. we finally found a party but they wouldnt let us in. apparently we werent attractive/ dressed skankily enough. it sucked. we went back to karly's room and watched the beganing of wedding crashers (at least thats all i watched since it was like 4am) i had to get up at 6:30 am to ride at morans which was a real bitch. i had no time for a nap. i came back to ud for attempt number 2 at going out. i ended up going to see a movie with alex, max and chris. i thought it was scary as hell, actually, in my oppinion it was the scariest movie i've ever seen. way too much jump out at you stuff...i loved it. ps chris wasnt scared at all because i gave him magic water. we went back to ud and alex and max sadly went home. chris and i met up with karly, matt d, josh and matt to try to find some place to go but by the time we got ourselves together the cops had already broken it up. oh well. we were kinda of upset by the prospect of having another night without any parties so one of us suggested the beach. i kno i kno it sounds crazy but none of us had anything better to do (well except for the 2 matts who must have realized it was insane). so the rest of us went back to our dorms, loaded our stuff up in the back of my car and away we went. we only had a few minor delays when we couldnt seem to figure out how to get off one road and when karly's mom called. other then that it went fine. chris west slept the whole way, karly gave directions and me and jost drove. we got to the beach around 5 i think and decided we would take a nap out by the ocean so we could wake up and see the sunrise. too bad it was like 50 degrees and the wind was blowing and we only had one sleeping bag and very thin blankets. i had to pee like hell but none of the public bathrooms were open. if i were drunk it wouldnt have been a problem but since i was sober the nearest bush didnt seem to be such a great option. i ended up creeping into a construction site and using the portapotty. ick. there was no sunrise to see since it was soo cloudy. around 7 we all gave up and went back to my car to try to sleep. it was lousy. we woke up around 11, grabbed a quick lunch at grottos and headed home. the end sucked the worst cause my mom called and yelled at me bc she thought i was hung over. too bad that was like the only thing i WASNT doing wrong. i was sober all weekend. i started to feel sick and tired and then we got lost when we were obviously like 5 mins from ud but no one knew which road to take (chris may have been a help except he was asleep again...i think he was pretty much asleep the entire trip). luckily josh got us home even tho we had to take the long way. i finally got home quite late and mom had left me a million chores to do. i did them asleep on my feet since i'd slept hardly more than 5 hours combined the last two nights. i stayed up as long as i could and then finally crashed at 10pm. what a weekend. i really want to do the beach again except maybe with a bit more planning. at the very least i could tell my parents, check the weather and print out map quest. i learn a lot in college.

Date:	2006-02-14 21:13
Subject:	Valentines day is gay
Security:	Public
Mood:	cranky

i am not particularly bitter or sad, i just think vd is a poor excuse for a holiday. and why the hell is everyone breaking up right before it??? is it some sort of fucked up cult or something? i am close friends with at least four people who broke up in like the last week or so. its redic.
oh so last nite sucked a big one. i couldnt fall asleep cause the tv was on and i had to get up at like 5:30 am. i ended up falling asleep around 1 but then at 3 i woke up cause i heard lindsay say "sarah?" and sarah was like, "yeaa??" and lindsay said "is there someone in here?" sarah- (giggle) "yeaaaa". so then lindsay left the room. i kind of started wishing nothing would happen but then they started hooking up and the bed started shaking like there was a fucking earthquake. i pretty much leaped off the top bunk and sprinted into the lounge. lindsay was in there and we tried to go to sleep on the couches. at least it was sort of a bonding experience for me and lindsay i guess, we found some common ground on how much we hated sarah at the momement. TIME OUT WE ARE GOING TO A PARRRRRRTYYYYYYYYYY (cause thats what valentines day is really for- and any other day for that matter) i will tell the rest of the story later

Date:	2006-02-13 19:14
Subject:	karly says...
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	karly reading outloud- how annoying

type a post. so i will type a fairly uneventful one. got up at 6:30am today to go riding. i went outside and realized it was frikin freezing, 16 degrees wind chill of 8. i decided i wouldnt abuse my horses or myself by going out (i may be crazy but not psychotic). i ended up taking a nap in my nice bed at home from 8 till 11. then i went outside and did my barn work which was cold and boring. my only class today started at two which was my bio lab with kar. it was so easy it was redic, all we did today was try to guess what was inside a little black container using the scientific method and play with some termites. it was fun. then me and kar went grocery shopping and bought way to much food but thats ok bc we are going to eat it for our "we hate valentines day" party tomorrow. we went to dinner with cw and matt dickenson which was fun. chris broke karly's chapstick and bought her a new one, it was quite funny. now i am doing hw. goodbye.

ps i have moved into karlys room for good

Date:	2006-02-10 11:40
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy

taking a quick break from my day so i guess i will update this thing. its sooo great to be back in school. it has been really fun so far... except for classes. im taking philosophy, stat, bio and econ. all boring. at least i have kar for 2 of them :D i started back at work today which was fun. they put a couple other horses back into work. i got to ride one, Kairenba. he was pretty cool, a lot more fiery than the ones i usually ride. he won a race last year but brian said that all the other ones that he ran in he didnt even try. we schooled them in the indoor over jumps. Kairenba was really nervous, he got rushed a lot jumping last year so now he really has no confidence. he is an AMAZING jumper though. we got going a bit too fast to one oxer and he ducked out the last second. i was already throwing my shoulders (baaaaaaaaaad me) so i fell off :( i was fine and i got back on and jumped it but i am getting sick of this falling off nonsense. maybe if you triple the number of horses you ride you fall off 3x more often. seems that way. anyways, we are all going out tonight and i am so excited. ps karen i dont know why you hung up on me last night but you are a bitch :-p

Date:	2006-02-06 06:37
Subject:	dream
Security:	Public
Mood:	scared and excited
Music:	none

yikes, i just woke up from the scariest dream ever. i was possessed by the devil and everything was really scary. my whole family thought i was schizophrenic cause my grandpa was and they didnt believe me. it was sprt of like being trapped in the exorcism of emily rose. eeep.
i am sooo tired but i gotta ride all our horses, do barn work, shower and pack the rest of my crap up before i can go back to school. i cannnt wait to see you all. dont forget, dinner at kate's. ps, kar sry i didnt call you last night, i accidently fell asleep like a bum. oh yea and let me kno when you are going to get your nose pierced, bc i have decided i am absolutly definitly coming with you to get a tattoo, i was looking for places last nite. have a good day yall